Because

- conjunction
1. For the reason that; due to the fact that

- Idiom
2. Because of; by reason of; due to

- Usage note
1. See reason

I think my why? is broken. Yes, I said my why?. It's at least malfunctioning. Non-functioning, actually. Maybe it's the heat. The heat is causing most of me to malfunction. It makes sense that, in order to complete its assault, the heat's malevolence would go for the very source of my energy and try to get at my why?.

My why?, by the way, is the facet of my self that finds my Why. For the last several years I've been making incredible progress based solely on the force of my Why.

In my last post I named my current challenge: to formulate a new List, now that literally everything I wanted to do, in big-picture pursuit of an independent-but-not-insanely-so-while-contributing-positively-to-the-world life, is done. I'm currently just coasting along on the positive inertia of the last two years' Why-driven work. In days gone by, I had only to wait in order for the why? to start examining everything in me until the pressure built up and I spontaneously entered list-making mode. But if there's no why?, there's no pressure, and therefore no List.

Hmmm.

Perhaps I should take inventory while I still have time, before the complete madness of the school year follows the heat's energy-suck and tramples me flat. That would be bad, and certainly completely ruin the progress I made.

The most why?-inspiring questions I remember asking in the past, to get me started, were:

1) What is God's plan for my life?
2) What the hell do I have to do to feel good about my body and look good in my clothes?
3) How the hell do I get this freakin' list of stuff done?!

Ok, the things that need the most immediate work (again) are:

1) spiritual life
2) physical health & fitness
3) time management system (in preparation for the future overwhelmed-ness).
4) STUDY

OK that's done. Time for a run and a bible study, then a STUDY. Watch out, heat. I'm looking for my why? via God's plan, and you're not gonna stop me.